Die to self.

Death is a strong word.

Often, when people talk about a loved one dying, the use a less potent word like, “they passed,” or “we lost them.”

When I was training for a volunteer position I was doing at a grief counseling center for children, I remember discussing this, and the impact it has on children – “well go find grandpa if he is lost!”

Death seems so harsh. It stings a little bit.

And in the case of dying to self, it is exactly the word we need.

Romans 6:6 says our selves were crucified, “We know that our old sinful selves were crucified with Christ so that sin might lose its power in our lives. We are no longer slaves to sin.”

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In a devotional called God Calling from May 3, this passage struck me hard (emphasis mine):

Self dethroned – that is the lesson, but in its place put Love for Me, knowledge of Me.

Self, not only dethroned, but dead. A dead self is not an imprisoned self.  An imprisoned self is more potent to harm. In all training – (in Mine of you, and in yours of others) – let self die.

But for each blow to the life of self you must at the same time embrace and hold fast the new Life, Life with Me.

It is not a dead self that men have to fear, but a thwarted, captive, imprisoned self.  That self is infinitely more self-centered than the self allowed full play.  But to you, My children, I teach a higher science-law than even freedom of the self.  I teach death to the self.  No repressions, just death.  Petty self-life exchanged for Divine Life

And now I can make more clear to you what I would say about forgiveness of injuries.

But what you do not see is that you, the self in you, can never forgive injuries.  The very thought of them means self in the foreground, then the injury, instead of appearing less, appears greater. It is one of My commands that as you seek My forgiveness, so you must forgive.

No, My children, as all true Love is of God and is God, so all true forgiveness is of God and is God. The self cannot forgive. Kill self.

Cease trying to forgive those who fretted or wronged you.  It is a mistake to think about it.  Aim at killing the self now – in your daily life, and then, and not until then, you will find there is nothing that even remembers injury, because the only one injured, the self, is dead.

As long as it recurs to your mind you deceive yourself if you think it forgiven.

Many deceive themselves in this.

Oh whoa, whoa, whoa! This gave me such a new definition to the meaning of dying to self.
“The self in you, can never forgive injuries.”
No wonder I have a hard time letting go of things at times, I am holding on to self. My self was wounded, embarrassed, hurt, betrayed, deceived, or humiliated – not Christ.  And the more I am living for myself, the more I am apt to feel those things.
When I am living in Christ, I am offended only when my God is accused or betrayed, I can easily forgive the trespasses against my humanity.
This is a a higher way of living that is hard for me to grasp, but a journey I want to begin. To truly die to self, to forgive and move on as though I truly have died to myself and am allowing Christ in me to forgive.
For more:
The Gospel Coalition – Too Many Selves
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